Today is the other day with more worse.
I sent him email, but he never sent the email back to me.
Today, I'm really tired to find a birthday present for him. I spent almost $100 but when i got home,
He didn't seem waiting for me. I didn't see him OL.
I tried to call him, but nobody pick up the phone, and I tried again one more time ... and finaly someone pick up the phone,
and it's him who picked up the phone.
His voice sound nervous and surpised. I know, He hidden something to me.
I can fell it when he lied to me. I can fell it when he try to avoid me.
It's ok for me. if he want turn become "a devil" to me, it's fine for me, I will not return it to you.

It's 12 AM now, I've been trying to sleep since 11 o'clock, but untill now I still awake,
This is happen again. =( my worry has destroy part of my rest.

and about him ... no matter what he will do to me ... i will still send his birthday present, because i don't want anything back from him,
This present is real from the bottom of my heart.
and any change that happen to him ... i accept =)
Night hen ...