My heart never stop jealous.
He got called yesterday, someone asked him to accompany her to buy a gift ...
and he looked want to hang out with this girl.
I don't know why he said yes to this girl, and he didn't tell me right a way,
untill today i had to start it to ask him first about today's date with that girl,
if he doesn't have any feeling, why he has to be afraid by telling me right the way?

I know, may be she is just a friend, but i can't stop thinking about what is he doing right now,
is he like that girl? or why does he say yes to accompany her?
I remember last time when the another japanese girl ask him to accompany her, he looks doesn't interested to her,
but at this time, without doubt he says yes!
and now, it's 3.45 PM, he went out at 1.13 PM.
He said it won't take long, but it's almost 3 hours. I don't know what should I do ...

God, why I always like this ... i know this is not good for me ...
but why ... I can't be like other people not to much thinking about this kind of situation,
Why i always refuse if someone ask me to go out especially guy.
I can't betray people who i love.
arrggggggggggg ....
why me? why me???
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it's 3.48 ... and he hasn't back home yet :(