My Dear Hen,
I want to tell you how much I miss you, but everything is not that simple, the real fact is not in my side.
Everything just blur, I don't even think this gonna work out.
He has his own life, with his gracefull mother and I ... just sitting alone in my room, with nobody excactly know and care my situation.
Including him, he is busy with his family and school. I know, i can't force him to do something for me.
I'm just met him excactly two months ago, and that's a pretty short term to know each other.
but, it's just me want to take the risk.

I know we both are confuse, He loves me and I love him.
but the fact is against us.
I don't know how long we can keep this relationship.
I'm just wish, this will end up with a happy ending story, but if not ....
yeah ... it's mean i have to live one more time in a dark hole ...
I hope this is not gonna happen ....
I have to sleep now ... i'm really tired ....
Nite ......................