Thanks God for everything you gave to me.
I feel bless have him with me now.
I know, this only the beggining, the real journey hasn't started yet.
God ... please guide me ....

Love You God. Amin

God, you really answer my prayer.
I loveyou God.

Please take all of my worry ....

I went to the church yeseterday with his uncle, brother's and sister's.
after that we went to the hostipal to visit his sister daugther, and I cooked at his brother's house.
I kind of unconfortable, because his aunty was standing right behind me and watch me how I do the cook.
but everything goes ok. Thanks God for everything you show it to me.
Your bless is so amazing. Thanks God.

Amin.

My heart is beatting hard.
the time is so slow.
I miss him a lot. everything seems endless.
it 8.00 Pm now, it's 1 more hour, but i just can't wait to see him.
I really miss him.
I'm in the class now.
I just want this class finish ....

oh God .... what shoud I do?

He bought me a lot of vitamin today.
God, he is so kind to me. I don't know how long this is gonna be.
Day after day, i love him more and more.
I never meet people like him before.
He is too perfect for me. I don't know what should I do ...
I really don't know ...

I cook "Kacang Panjang" and sekba for him today.
I don't know what I'm feeling, I cook with love .. because I really love him ...
I do really love him a lot.

Thanks God for him. I know, you answer my prayer in different way.
But you give me the best thing.
Thanks God for everything that you gave it to me.

Thanks God.
Amin.

I'm sick. A little fever, cough, and sore throat.
yesterday is the worse, it's better now.
I hope i can get this sick over.

God, please help me to always remember you, I don't want make twice mistake.
I love him and i don't want to lose him again.
I love him ....

Today ... something different has changed my life.
I'm with him now. I was really surprised what he did to me. and I didn't even can reject him.
I love him, but I don't know why. I need him, I will be nothing without him.

God, I'm sorry what i have done yesterday night.
God, i don't want to make things wrong twice.
God, ... thanks for everything ....


I'm with him now. Oki.

Yesterday, I help him to clean his house because his uncle will come to visit his daughter on having a baby.
day afterday i become closer and closer to him.
Something inside him is really attract me. not because of his face or his money.

He kissed my head yesterday. I was surprised but I act like nothing happen.
I'm really tired ... but I'm really happy.
Thanks God for everything you gave it to me.

Thanks for the answer on everything.
I know, waiting is not easy.
and I still waiting for a lot of thing to be answered.

But I believe in You. One day you will show your way, not my way. =)
thanks God.
Amin.

I went to His Relatives birthday, thanks God I can adapt easly.
From the birthday party, we went to the church and ate dinner at draft tofu.
God, day after day i become closer to him.
I don't know if he is the one.

I don't know if i can pass to all of this.
I have to much pass history.
I don't know what should I do ... ... ...

Tuhan ... aku nda tau apa yg aku lakukan hari ini.
Kenapa perasaan ku tak enak?
dia sungguh tak dapat ku duga.
apa tadi gara2 dia melihat ku bicara pake msn?

sudahlah ... aku pun tak ingin mengharapkan yang terlalu berlebih ...
setidaknya aku pernah merasakan saat aku di bantu orang ...
ku hanya menyerahkan semuanya padamu =)

Today, I went to Oki's brother baby shower.
That was the first time I met someone else family. The whole of his family.
first, i kind of a little "kaku" .. but .. i don't want to look very shy, i can adapt easly ...
fuih ... thanks i found Tika (my school mate at unpar 93).

Thanks God, for everything you show to me.
Thanks for everything.

Amin.

I'm tired.
really tired.
We ate rendang and kangkung blacam.

Yesterday, I didn't know what was going on with me.
day by day, my heart floating ...

I cooked for him. Kangkung Cha and steam ground meat.
He is too kind to me. and I don't know how to thank You God.
You send me him and I don't even know is he the one?
God ... I have to much weakness and I don't want to disspointed him.
God ... please forgive my past. I don't want to fall again into my weakness.

Give me a strength and pation.
I belive in you.
Amin

I am in the class now. Material and texturing class. and I don't know why, I kind of miss him.
and i open his song on the website. and it calm me down ku .....

Today I make a surprised birthday party for andrew.
Thanks God for every successfulity. I can't make all this thing happen without your bless.
I don't know what will be happen without You.

God, please gimme a patient.
I don't want to easy get jealous with people.
Please ..........................................

Thanks for a great day that i had today.
thanks God. =)

Today, I will go to church with Oki, Lia, Ivana and Bejo.
God, please guide me to your home.
Give me a patient.

I don't know what will happen today.
Yesterday, I can't sleep well. I went to bed at 2 o'clock, but I can't close my eyes untill 3 o'clock.
Today is supposed a beautiful day, but my eyes is realy tired.

It almost 10.30. I haven't heard anything from Oki.
He might be on the way.

It's been a long time since I dressed up.